It’s another Monday, folks, and everything that goes along with that. Honestly, I work 7 days a week on various projects, for the most part, but I still like to keep things organized by the work week. Last week, I wrote about why I quit my job with the government. These days, I’m trying to gain some more traction in more what I want to do with my life, which is unfortunately not so well defined JUST yet, haha! Woot woot!
I have been doing multiple things that I love to kind of get a feel for what I might be good at and what I could do day to day for the next 10-20 years, and I think a big thing that I’m realizing is that I kind of what to do ALL of it. And I mean…why not? I think that I can figure out a way to do it, as long as I’m am consistent! Who knows, I don’t suppose anyone knows until they try!
So, today I’m going to talk a little bit about finding your way! When I put in my notice at my job, I was euphoric! But of course, like almost any human being facing a big change, the closer it got, the more terrified I got. The unknown! Holy smokes! What was I going to do? There was so much I wanted to do, but you know there’s always the fear of failure. Of making the wrong choice. I’ve had friends telling me not to end up under a bridge (thanks for the vote of confidence, guys), people that chastised me for quitting, so on and so forth, and it certainly didn’t help my own fear. What I learned, however, is that sometimes– often –you have to do things in spite of your fear. You have to look for things that you’re scared of specifically, in fact, because those are the things you care about the most.
I’m struggling through the fear for this reason, just like I’m struggling through the fear in other areas of my life (relationships, much? lol)…and in so doing, even though I don’t have what you might call a “normal” job, I’ve been busier than ever. Writing, and traveling, making contacts, making blog posts, attending events for the arts…auditions and model calls, trying to improve my photography. People keep telling me I have to find my brand, but I’m starting to think that my brand is actually just this ridiculous.
Wandering is my -thang- I guess. You might say…questing. Hahaha!
What do you want to be when you grow up??